Go MissT! You can do anything you put your mind to! Will be checking your blog for updates! 
How My Journey Began
Thank you for visiting. This space is one of many ways to spread the Good News(Mark 16:15). I pray the resources and/or entries in this blog, will encourage someone who is searching for God. We’re told the angels rejoice when one person repents(Luke 15:10), and it is a joy and privilege to share what God has done in my life. The Lord is worthy of praise and glory.
Note: I’m spiritually maturing and changing my lifestyle as led by the Lord daily. This means I’m far from sinless…but sin LESS because of God’s Grace and the Holy Spirit which dwells within me(Ephesians 3:16-17).
Over the years I’ve struggled with addictions, unforgiveness due to past abuse, low self-esteem, and other forms of bondage, which led to spiritual strongholds. However, today is a new day. It is because of these life experiences, and most importantly guidance by the Holy Spirit, that I disagree with Christians who self-righteously push God’s Word.
To understand why I believe God’s Word should not be pushed on Unbelievers, please read journal entries on Regeneration and Sovereign Election.
Eventually I hit rock bottom, but despite being anxious, depressed, tired, and 100+ pounds overfat, that was not enough pain to put me on the right track. I settled into a rut at my highest weight of 265 pounds, and it was not until the Lord provided the Gift of Conversion, that I was able to recognize sin in my life and begin a spiritual transformation.
This was a Gift of God’s Grace, because I am undeserving.
Through spiritual conviction, God revealed who I truly was in Christ, and my need for deliverance, surrender, repentance, and humility. Despite many opinions, God is not a “crutch” for those who are hurting and in pain. An unregenerate, and unrepentant soul, will never search for God on their own, regardless of how bad life becomes. It is against their nature and they can not. None of us are an exception!
In fact, I had personally packed away my Bible, and honestly did not want to hear the word Christian again, and bitterness had began to grow. So when the Lord began to transform my heart and mindset, it was unexpected, and I initially resisted.
Fortunately, it was out of my control, and years of toxic emotions and strongholds began to dissolve as God set me free, and began to replace it all with love…for His glory.
Let me explain what led to all the above. I never doubted the existence of God. As a child, I remember speaking to other children on the playground about the Bible, and would ask adults numerous questions about God. Ironically, none of the other children in my family or at school did this, and family members often dabbled into spiritual beliefs not in agreement with the Bible, which left me with more questions. Over the years I prayed for the Lord to provide protection, use me to comfort the brokenhearted, and teach me how to understand those with hardened hearts.
As the years passed, I was convinced God had ignored my prayers, because I had become the very people I wanted to help. I felt, I was a loving person, who had experienced more abuse and heartache than one woman could handle(self-pity is ugly), and told God, HE was to blame, for all the innocent people who suffered, since HE “allowed” it all to take place(spiritual immaturity at its worst). Surely God was sadistically cruel(I incorrectly thought), and had given up on this planet, because most of those who denied His existence seemed to be doing just fine(boy did I fall for the illusion).
These were some of the most misleading and deceptive lies I’ve ever believed, and they led me on a wild goose chase to fill a void, and ease pain, by interacting with different people, beliefs, and humanistic “opinions”. Eventually I became socially anxious and spiritually exhausted!!!
But Satan IS a liar…and Believers have Victory in Christ!!!
The Lord will NEVER allow His Children…the Elect with assurance of salvation(1 John 5:13-15), to stray too far from home, or endure more than they can handle(1 Corinthians 10:13). I never thought I would say this, but my darkest moments, are now some of my most precious, because the Lord has used them to teach me well. It’s only through God’s love, that I was able to see my own sin, and forgive quite a bit of ugliness in my life.
The reality, is that God never left me. He was always there, two steps ahead, guiding and making sure ALL experiences worked out for my good, even those intended to harm me(Romans 8:28). Joy and Peace could have been permanent Fruits in my life, despite what was going on around me, if only I had trusted and depended on God, rather than relying upon my own abilities, or that of others. Without constant communication with God, even the most faithful Believers can be temporarily led astray.
If you are seeking the Lord, it is ONLY because He has placed the desire in your heart, and you “will” find Him. He provides Salvation by Grace, through Faith, not because of anything we have done, or not done, but because of His love and mercy. There is no addiction, habit, behavior, or worse, you can not overcome with God. If I can be set free…anyone can, and eternity has been promised to those who Walk by the Spirit. Blessings, Miss T
Responses
By: brukaoru on August 20, 2007
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Hey Sis, thanks for visiting and keeping an eye on me. It holds me accountable and keeps me strong. I’ll be checking on you as well. *hugs* 
By: Miss T on August 20, 2007
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You are an amazingly strong woman. I know you will succeed at whatever goals you set. I’m looking forward to following your progress.
By: nockowt1 on August 29, 2007
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Awe, thanks Kevin. I’m excited to hear about your growth as well. Bend anymore nails lately? lol Miss T
By: Miss T on August 31, 2007
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Thanks for the link to your journal, great writing.
The 13th and 14th paragraphs are very enlightening!
Keep up the good work, I know you can do it.
By: claycat on September 7, 2007
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You’re welcome ClayCat, and thank you for stopping by to say hello. Girl, I hope to have legs like yours in a few months. lol Miss T
By: Miss T on September 9, 2007
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Hey MissT, how are you? Hope you are doing well!
By: brukaoru on September 15, 2007
at 8:32 pm
Hey Girl, I was thinking about you the other day. How have you been? Miss T
By: Miss T on September 18, 2007
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Aww, that’s so nice of you, Always glad to see your doing well.
By: brukaoru on September 18, 2007
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Same here sis. I visited your profile today, and wondered how your classes were coming along. Check in with me periodically, just to let me know how things are going. It’s always great to hear from you. Have a peaceful night girl. T
By: Miss T on September 18, 2007
at 7:33 pm
UGH. I started to get a little cold (coughing, sneezing, runny nose) and I didn’t exercise yesterday and probably won’t today either. I hate colds, I feel like doing nothing at all! I hope it goes away soon, I hate to miss workouts!
By: brukaoru on September 22, 2007
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Hey Girl, that may be a sign your body needs more rest. I think you made the best decision to take off a day or two. Then again, when the seasons change, a lot of people catch colds. Make sure to drink lots of fluids. Do you have body aches? Whew…girl those are a mess. I hope you feel better soon. T
By: Miss T on September 23, 2007
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Woo! Just got done exercising for today. Feeling much better, thank goodness I didn’t get a fever or anything. I think I can get over missing 2 days, hehe… Thanks for the wishes,
By: brukaoru on September 23, 2007
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Woohoo!! That’s great news sis!! Glad to hear you’re back up and running. T
By: Miss T on September 26, 2007
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I am too! How are you doing yourself?… Hey, I have a few questions for you if you don’t mind answering them.
What time of the day do you workout? Do you think if someone works out different times on different days that it makes a difference or not really?
Thanks!
By: brukaoru on September 27, 2007
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Hey Sis!! How are classes coming along? I hope you had a blessed and productive week. Concerning training, it depends on each person. I’m a strong advocate for early morning training, because its easier for me to mentally commit to routine, and late exercise keeps me up at night. So I train before the crack of dawn. lol However, everyone is not able to train during those hours.
I think any regular and consistent time during the morning, afternoon, or evening will also work. In terms of a different time each day, I wouldn’t recommend it only because it “could” make it easier to get off track. However, if you’re disciplined, getting adequate sleep, and eating correctly, it just might work. Sometimes life gets in the way, and you have to do what you have to do. I hope that helped. T
By: Miss T on September 28, 2007
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I’m doing okay so far with classes. Thanks for answering my questions. I agree as well that being consistent is the main thing. I’ve been trying to find what time is the best for me. I think it’s just going to take a few weeks for me to get used to waking up early and working out, but I think it’s less stressful in the morning because if something happens along the day you don’t have to worry about working out, you’ve already done it.
By: brukaoru on September 28, 2007
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Good luck! I found your blog via BB.com
By: S William Shaw on October 1, 2007
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Hey Brukaoru, that was my reasoning as well. Things can fall completely apart by evening, but at least your workout will be out of the way, and just knowing you’ve met that goal, will help keep you on track. With everything going on in my life, I need consistency. lol Let me know what you decide ok. T
By: Miss T on October 1, 2007
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Hi William, thank you for stopping by to show your support. I really appreciate that. Have a great week. T
By: Miss T on October 1, 2007
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I can’t believe I’m visitor #777 so I just had to respond- It must be a Godincidence!! I’m flying out the door late for work so I’ll follow up later - keep at it, so happy to meet you.
By: Belle on October 17, 2007
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Hey Belle, seven is a very significant number in the Bible. Hmm…look out girl. I hope you’re having a great day. T
By: Miss T on October 19, 2007
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Hey, MissT
Just checking in with your progress.
You are doing so good, keep on!
By: claycat on November 6, 2007
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Thanks Cat!! You’re doing great also. T
By: Miss T on November 8, 2007
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Your very brave for posting pictures, am still on the fence about that (for my blog). Anyway, great progress and I will be waiting for the next good read.
By: cece21 on November 24, 2007
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Thank you Cece!! Thank you for the support. I’d love to visit your blog one day. T
By: Miss T on December 3, 2007
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Hey T,
Finally got a chance to check out your site. I like it, it think you have done a great job with it. It is very impowering, not just physically but more so spiritually. A lot of the scriptures you have quoted are ones that I have been trying to live my life by. For some reason this holiday season has been difficult for me. Mostly physically and a little spiritually. I know God has more planned for me and my family, I just think I am tired of waiting for it. However, it is probably true what they say, “Be carefull what you ask for, especially for God”. Keep up the great work on your transformation, you look great.
Blessigs,
Joe
By: joe on December 14, 2007
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Miss T, my sister. I wanted to tell you again how proud of you that I am for the transformations you have only begun to make in your life. You are an inspiration and a friend. God Bless. Brian
By: Bousman7 on December 14, 2007
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Dear Joe, it’s great to see you. Thanks for visiting my journal. It can really test our patience when it seems as though our prayers are answered slowly, but one thing is certain…the Lord’s timing is always right on time. He is near, and will not disappoint. You and your family are in my prayers and thoughts. Please pray for me as well. T
By: Miss T on December 16, 2007
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Brian!! How are you?? Your words always come at the right time, and never fail to leave a smile on my face. You’re an inspiration to me as well. Your sister in Christ, Miss T
By: Miss T on December 16, 2007
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Hey, MissT. I hope you had a great Christmas and have a great New Years as well.
I hope I will not bug you, but I seemed to have reached a plateau and wonder if you could give me any advice.
I was wondering, do you count your calories? If so, how did you determine how many you needed each day?
I think my problem may be I am not eating enough. Though I am eating around 2100 calories a day, with a refeed once a week, I came to this conclusion following Christmas Day.
I do not make a habit of cheating. I eat clean even when I refeed, but Christmas Day I did “pig out” and ate way more than I should have. But right after Christmas Day I had my (time of the month) without much stomach problems like I usually have if I eat a lot of junk food. This leads me to the conclusion that I may not be eating enough and that may leptin levels were low despite my refeeds… So I would like to ask you for your input.
Thanks so much MissT, your making wonderful progress!
By: brukaoru on December 28, 2007
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great read Miss T…..you are indeed filled with the spirit…you actually opened my eyes up on a few subjects….GOD BLESS and i feel ya on the TRUE believers…but i would like to talk about that subject more thoroughly with you…that is a great one that comes up many times in bible study
shawn…email me anytime sis…much luv on your knowledge and testimony
By: SOULJA4HOVA on December 29, 2007
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Hi Renee, I posted this on your bodyspace profile, but will share here as well. I hope you’re having a Happy New Year sis! To answer your question, caloric intake, is determined by the intensity of your training, lean muscle mass, metabolism, and other factors. Without additional details, I’m unable to offer an opinion, as to whether you might consider increasing or decreasing calories.
I personally plan portions based on how I feel each day. So I don’t have experience with refeeds, and other specialized calorie programs. This is a great question to post on the nutrition message boards. I’m sure members who have experience using refeeds will be more helpful. My December 15th entry, has links to past messages which explain how I plan meals etc.
However, the few times I’ve tracked calories(just out of curiosity), I’ve averaged between 2000-2200 daily. I have about about 140 lbs of lean body weight, and push myself like fire is under my butt when training, so I really do need the calories. Unless I reach a plateau, I plan to remain with portions instead of tracking calories daily. It’s a lot simpler. Sorry I couldn’t be more helpful. Check back around Spring, I will probably need to start tweaking calories by then. T
By: Miss T on January 1, 2008
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Happy New Year Shawn!! Thank you for the support, compliments, and kind words!! I appreciate them more than you know. I can tell from your avi photo, that you’re also making progress, and are doing very well. I can’t wait to see your progress in a few months. Keep up the great work, and continue to train with all you’ve got!! Blessings, Miss T
By: Miss T on January 1, 2008
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Hey T,
I could use your prayers for a friend of mine. I hope you don’t mind me doing it here, I didn’t think BB.com was the right place to share this… Thanks and God Bless,
Hayden was admitted to Rainbow Babies and Childrens Hopsital on Tuesday with an original diagnosis of pnuemonia and ear infections. This is especially bad because he is not even 7 weeks old yet and has not had any immunizations (expect for Hepitits B at birth)! Further testing changed the diagnosis from pneumonia to RSV - we are still waiting on the results of his spinal tap and pray that it does not show bacterial menigitis. The doctors are being very precautious and aggressive and are optimistic that the test will come back back negative for menigitis. The little guy has been through so much and we will keep you all posted…
By: joe on January 24, 2008
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Hi Joe, thank you for letting me know about little Hayden. I’m praying that the Lord provide healing and comfort for this precious baby, and that He touch the hearts of all those surrounding him, including the professionals responsible for his treatment. I’m very much looking forward to an update soon. God Bless, T
By: Miss T on January 25, 2008
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